Feeling sick

Well, this sucks. I have been nausea free for a couple months but I’ve felt it in strong waves the last few days. I have these amazing opportunities right now, all lining up like perfectly, and I’m hit with this old, familiar feeling of complete sickness.

To be honest, it sucks. Part of my mind goes to fear and wants to get scared. It starts debating if these new, amazing things are the cause. Possible self-sabotage? No. Could my stomach be messed up again? Unlikely. Is it the flu? I don’t think… I am not sure what is causing it. But I’m trying to focus on not letting the fear go to my mind.

This post isn’t about having a pity party (though it may seem that way) instead, it’s a simple message for anyone out there who feels like sometimes they take one step forward and two steps back. For the person trying really hard to be healthy, to get well, only to feel like you hit a plateau or have an off day (or week).

This post is about staying strong and positive, even when we are scared and filled with uncertainty. It’s about keeping faith that the universe has a better plan for us than our egos do. And it’s about remembering to let go of trying to control everything and just to float with the current.

Keep moving forward, don’t let fear go to your mind, and enjoy your life. Things will get better, even if the progress seems slow, but I promise it will ❤

 

xoxo-Callie

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Self-love Affirmations

Hi all!

I’ve been doing a lot of thinking about self-love, and I’ve come to realize that one of the main purposes of this blog is to help you be totally in love with yourself. Obviously, I’m not talking about some narcissistic, ego version of that, like thinking you’re better or worse than anyone… but I mean a real self-love that comes from somewhere deep within.

I feel like so much time gets wasted focusing on our insecurities. And for what? Why do we make ourselves feel shitty because we don’t look exactly like we think we should? Why do we endlessly compare ourselves to others? It’s a huge waste of time, and honestly it’s an insult to yourself. You’re already perfect, beautiful, sexy, and feminine. You just need to see it for yourself.

Image how much time and energy you would save if you decided today that you totally loved yourself. You’d be able to go anywhere you wanted and feel great about yourself. You wouldn’t worry about others validating your self-worth, because you’d already be filled up with all of the validation and love for yourself.

Believe me when I tell you that being insecure is just a bottomless pit. Looking to others to make you feel better will never be enough for the ego, because it’s not really there love you’re seeking, it’s your own.

Love yourself exactly as you are and stop comparing yourself to others.

Be who you are, try different things, and know it’s okay to be you.

I’m a big believer in affirmations. So, instead of letting your mind run wild today with negativity, try thinking these things instead:

(Note: In the beginning, it may feel weird to be telling yourself these things, but that is only because you are so used to being hard on yourself. Keep up with the affirmations, and before you know it, you’ll start to feel it for yourself!

-I love myself

-I am the epitome of feminine beauty and sexuality

-I am lovable

-I am worthy of love/happiness/greatness

-I am beautiful

-I am happy

-I believe in myself

-I am wanted everywhere I go

-Everyone loves me

-I bring light and love to everyone I meet

 

I hope you all have a wonderful day!

 

–Much love, Callie ❤

How I got rid of my horrible menstrual cramps

I didn’t get my period until I was like 16-17 and I don’t remember having very bad cramps for the first few years. Then, like two years ago I started having worse and worse cramps.

They were awful. It felt like someone was trying to stab their way out of my lower abdominal with a knife. Sometimes the pain would be so bad I would throw up. For the first two days of my period, I would be in bed with a heating pad, taking pain killers, or crouched over in the shower while hot water hit my lower back.

I didn’t know why they continued to get worse until recently. After I changed my diet to plant-based my cramps nearly disappeared. I finally linked the fact that my cramps got worse and worse two years ago because I was having way more dairy. I loved pizza and was eating it multiple times a week. I also loved cheese and would eat ice cream occasionally.

I had heard that dairy was linked to more painful cycles, so I cut out the pizza and just had cheese occasionally. I figured my next period would be pain-free.

It wasn’t.

If you want pain free periods, here is my advice:

#1 CUT OUT ALL DAIRY. Dairy is horrible for a number of reasons, but I won’t get into all of them now. I am proof that if you cut this crap out, your cycles will be so much more tolerable. A vlogger named Raw Alignment has a video about birth control up on her YouTube site and near the end of it she talks about bad periods. It took her 2-3 cylces of clean eating for her pain to leave. So, just stick with it and your periods will be a breeze.

#2 CUT OUT PROCESSED FOODS. I know it’s hard when it’s that time of the month and you’re craving junk, but don’t do it to yourself. It will make your period worse.

#3 EXERCISE/YOGA. You don’t have to be a fitness nut, but it definitely helps to move and stretch your body.

I’m sure there are tons of ways out there to help your cramps, but these are what worked for me. It’s so relieving to know I don’t have to be scared of it anymore. I hated when I would get close to the beginning of my cycle and I wasn’t sure if I’d be able to go into work or not. Hopefully, if you have bad cramps, you can get relief with these easy steps!

 

If you are in the beginning stages of cleaning up your diet and your cramps are still bad, try this:

#1-Heating pad. These things were lifesavers for me when I was on my period. It does make you bleed more, so just be aware of that.

#2-Ginger. Add 1/2 a tsp of ginger to warm water and drink. It’s a little spicy but helps relieve pain naturally.

#3-Breathe Deep. Put on a meditation video (YouTube has a bunch of free ones).

 

I hope this helped!

 

Much love–Callie

How I lost 20 Pounds (without working out)

I used to be 20-25 pounds heavier than I am now. I remember when summer finally ended and I tried to slip on a pair of jeans that I hadn’t put on in a while. Unfortunately, I couldn’t even pull them up all the way. They stopped just under my butt and I felt a lurch in my stomach. My mind started to race with the possibilities as to why they didn’t fit anymore:

“They shrunk in the wash”… I hadn’t put these jeans in the wash, so that theory was out.

“They shrunk in the drawer”… not possible.

“Maybe they will fit if I try to pull them up now“… they didn’t.

I freaked out mentally and went to look at myself in the mirror. I didn’t notice a big change, except that my face seemed fuller. I went to weigh myself and was shocked when I saw ‘138’ on the scale. My ego tried to reason that it was impossible for me to be that, since I was 119 when I left Oregon. I didn’t understand how this happened, since I thought I was a pretty healthy person and would go jog once in blue moon. (Looking back, I was honestly very unhealthy back then) I made up my mind to drop back down to 120 as quickly as possible.

I became totally obsessed about my weight. I tried counting calories and doing cardio. I got a calorie counter on my phone and started eating protein bars instead of lunch. I got on the scale a little while later and was horrified to see I had gained 4 more pounds. How the f*ck did that happen? I had been restricting and (barely) working out and I expected to be rewarded with a lean bod.

To keep a long story short- it wasn’t until I made one BIG change that the weight fell off me rather quickly. Here is it:

I stopped focusing on weight, on having extra pounds, and started focusing on what number I did want to see on the scale. I changed what I told myself mentally and it made all the difference. I stopped calorie counting and the ridiculous jogs I counted as exercise and just said F it. This doesn’t mean I would go and eat an entire pizza and tell myself I was skinny. I honestly just wanted to start eating better and I didn’t realize I was doing it.

By visualizing what I wanted to see, I attracted it to me. If you think of yourself as someone who is fit, happy and loves to eat healthy, your actions will be very different than if you tell yourself you’re an overweight, sad slob who needs to lose weight.

Do not underestimate the power of visualization.

It is not anyone’s job to lose the weight for you, to get you healthy, or to make you happy. Those are things you need to do yourself. If you want change then you need to be the one to take action.

If you want to be healthier, it’s up to you to do it. Believe me when I tell you complaining or worrying about it will just make you feel worse and you won’t make any change you want to see. Don’t put your happiness or health in someone else’s hands.

Every morning, before you get out of bed, ask yourself “what is the best version of myself?” picture the body you want, the health you want, how you would feel when you attained these things, the energy you would have, and then get out of bed as if you are already that person.

I’m telling you, this stuff works. I know, because I’ve done it.

Much love– Callie ❤

P.S. I told another friend about the power of visualization after she asked me how I lost weight. She tried it herself and lost ten pounds. So, if we can do it, you can easily do it as well!

Stop putting so many nuts in your mouth

Ahhh, nuts. Good to put in your mouth, but only in small quantities. I mean, you can only fit so much in your mouth at one time anyways. When I first went vegan, my first thought was “where am I going to get my protein?” I always heard cashews, walnuts, and almonds were a great source-so I loaded up.

I ate tons of cashews and walnuts. I put them in recipes, on apples, and desserts. I also heard they were a good source of fat and they would be good for hair and skin, so I was sold! But, one thing I didn’t count on was my jeans getting a little tighter.

WTF

Why, when I was eating so clean, was I putting on weight? The answer was simple. I was sticking to many of those little things in my mouth. Like anything, moderation is key… and I don’t think adding two cups of walnuts to a recipe and eating all of it within two days is moderation, that’s excess. I always heard that if you ate healthy then you could eat as much as you wanted, and for me that turned out to be totally untrue and caused me to put on weight. So, do whatever works for your body, but for me, I had to cut back on the amount I was using. And in all honesty, I didn’t miss the extra nuts at all. In fact, I think my recipes were better without all of them.

I prefer to get my protein from beans, quinoa, a high quality protein powder, spinach… there are a lot of options that give you more protein with far less calories and fat. So, if you are wondering about the nuts you’re sticking in your mouth, remember these few things:

-While they do contain protein, they contain a whole bunch of fat. While it is a good fat, it’s still fat, so don’t eat excessively. Like I mentioned above, there are better sources!

-Buy raw, organic nuts. Buying them after they’ve been dry-roasted and salted kill their nutritional value and make them unhealthy. Plus, all of the extra sodium will make you retain water, which will make you feel bloated.

-Don’t freak out if you think you’ve eaten too many in one day. You’re still doing your best to try to be healthy!

I hope you all have an amazing day!

Much love–Callie

The Other Side of Yoga

I remember looking at insane yoga poses online and in magazines and thinking it looked like fun. I mean, ever since I’ve been young I’ve wanted to be able to do the splits and as I got older I wanted to increase my flexibility.

There are tons of reasons people want to get into yoga. Some want to get stronger, some want a better body, some want increased movement. I mostly wanted it because I wanted to be able to be more flexible and wanted abs-whatever floats your boat and gets you on the mat.

But the thing is, from all of the things I heard about yoga, I thought it would be a totally awesome experience. I thought I would flow, enjoy, and then stand up from the practice with a flat, perfect stomach. But when the video began and I started going through the movements I realized something:

This shit is hard!

My arms shook, my legs trembled, and I didn’t feel peace of mind at all. I was tired, and annoyed with the instructor because she would hold the positions for so longggg. Half-hour in, she was telling me to go back into down dog for what felt like the thousands time, and I remember thinking something along the lines of stop putting me in this position you cunt. I couldn’t believe I had such a thought, even though I was mostly joking, when I was supposed to be in such a graceful state.

I expected to go into it and rock it, but I didn’t. I couldn’t believe how difficult it was. I ended up having a much deeper appreciation and respect for the people who did it and made it look so easy.

The reason I wrote this post is because I stopped doing yoga for awhile because I didn’t think I was doing it “right”. I felt like the yogi articles I read all talked about how peaceful they felt doing it, and my thoughts were anything but zen. A simple egotistic thought kept me from a truly amazing thing for years. You don’t need to be crazy flexible, strong, or monk-like in order to grab a mat and get on the ground. You just need yourself. There are tons of beginner videos on Youtube. Tara Stiles and BOHO Beautiful have great things for beginners.

Don’t give up on something just because you think it’s hard or because you move through the positions like a clunky mess, while the instructor moves like a perfect wave. It will get easier, you will increase your flexibility, and you will feel amazing once you are done. The most important part is to just not be so hard on yourself. It’s a wonderful thing to get into. Don’t let fear of not being sure what you’re doing keep you from starting. All of those people you see who are amazing at it now were once clunky messes too.

Just don’t take it-or yourself-too seriously. Have fun with it. Try to hold the poses for as long as possible, and if you stumble just laugh and try again. The only person judging you is yourself, so let go of that and enjoy the fact you are pushing yourself to try something new.

I hope you all have an amazing dayyy!

Much love–Callie ❤

4 Tips for AMAZING Hair

Last summer when my health hit it’s lowest point, I lost about a third of my hair. I cried repeatedly over it and was scared because I didn’t understand why it was happening. I watched my long, thick blonde hair go many inches shorter and thinner. It was choppy, breaking, and dry. My ends wouldn’t stop splitting. I colored it brown because continuous coloring was out of the question at that point, my hair was way to delicate to be lightening it. On top of chronic migraines, nausea, depression and deepening anxiety, I had to deal with this and I felt like I couldn’t handle much more. No doctors could tell me what was wrong. They offered me thyroid medication, even though they weren’t sure if I had a thyroid problem.

So I cried some more and turned to searching online to help. I looked up everything there was to do with hair: what foods to eat, products to use, and reasons why this was happening. STRESS is one of the worst things you can do if you want healthy hair, and so I knew I had to just breathe and be patient. I knew I’d find answers, I knew it would grow back thicker than ever, and I knew everything would be all right. So, here are a list of things you can do for healthy hair. If you are trying to grow your hair or had health issues or simply want a thicker head of hair, then read on. And please, be patient.

Believe me when I tell you that everything really will be okay, I promise. Just breathe. This is a small list, I will do a much more extensive one or series on hair, depending on how all of my research comes together. Obviously I’m not a doctor or a registered dietitian. This is just my opinion and things that have worked for me. I want to share what I’ve found so it may help someone else out there<3

From following these steps my hair has improved SO much! And it wasn’t overnight. But my hair has grown in so much thicker and shinier than it ever has before. This is a process, so if you’re up for it read on.

So, with further adewwww. Here is my list of things you can do for healthy hair:

1.) STOP STRESSING-Stress is the numero uno thing to do if you want thin, weak hair. And honestly, who wants that? Nobody. That’s who. It’s easy for your mind to run wild with constant worst case scenarios, deadlines you have to meet, work, school, relationships, but if you want healthy hair, body, and life then you need to drop stress. I will write a whole other article on stress. Some simple tips are meditation (my favorite), breathing techniques, walking in nature, putting on a funny show, reading a book, working out, do yoga or talking to a friend/family member. FORGIVE yourself for feeling stressed, because if you stress about being stressed you’ll only create more stress and that’s just too much stress.

2.) LOVE YOURSELF- Okay, I know this is everywhere and your reaction may be “that’s easier said than done” but stick with me. When I first found all this love yourself stuff I thought it would be an overnight dealio. And when it wasn’t I panicked and wondered what I did wrong. I didn’t realize it was a daily ritual you had to begin. But after awhile I really did begin loving myself. I mean, I totally adore myself. And it’s not in a cocky way, but I just spent so much time focusing on negatives and being insecure. I had thoughts of self harm, depression, and anxiety because of things I was creating in my own mind. It’s OKAY to love yourself, you are absolutely amazing and deserve all of the blessings, beauty, and greatness the world has to offer. You’re a product of the universe, specially created, magnificent and wonderful. You are perfect and beautiful. You are a bundle of love. I read in Spirit Junkie by Gabrielle Bernstien that it’s important to “ask the universe to release any fear blocks that are keeping you from love”. Your hair will grow in wonderfully, be patient and love yourself now.

3.) WHAT TO EAT-

–SEAWEED. Markus Rothkranz has a product called IRISH MOSS and it works wonders for hair. You get A BUNCH in the bag and it lasts awhile. I’ve done a lot of things to help my hair, like cleaning my diet, being more gentle with it, but I think the SEAWEED is one of the biggest game changers for it.

–SWEET POTATOS. I used to totally dislike sweet potatoes. I liked white potatoes filled with butter, cheese, and salt… but that’s not ideal for health so I changed up what I ate. Sweet potatoes are AMAZING with coconut oil and one of my favorite snacks now. I also love to have them mixed with a white potato with a little added Celtic sea salt (don’t use table salt) and coconut oil.

-WALNUTS. If you want a fricken bomb recipe that has tons of walnuts, go to Minimalist Bakers website and make her grillable black bean burgers. They are FANTASTIC and filled with fiber, protein, and they will make your heart sing. I don’t add onion to mine, but to each their own.

-PUMPKIN SEEDS

4.) WHAT TO USE (and not use)-

-Products. Stay away from Shampoos/products with Sodium Loral Sulfate. I used to dislike natural shampoos because I thought they made my hair oily but after many trial and errors I found some I like. JASON brand has good products that don’t weigh my hair down (and they are cruelty free:)) Keep your scalp clean from toxic mousses and products.

-Brush your hair/rub your scalp. This will stimulate your scalp and get the blood pumping to it.

-Get regular trims. Ditch those split ends. I know it’s annoying to feel like you grow out your hair just to get it trimmed off but before you know it, it will be long and thick again. Your hair will also look way better and healthier because of it.

-Ditch elastic hair ties. I used to tie my hair up ALL the time. Top Knots and pony tails were a simple solution when i didn’t want to style my hair. But those ties are quite damaging and break your hair. I use a clip now. If you really need to tie it back, try a gentle band or scrunchie.

I hope this simple list helped! If you have any questions leave comments below. Or if you have any of your own advice I would love to hear it:) Or if you just need some love then let me know and I’ll send some to you through the computer ❤ I hope you have a wonderful day wherever you are.

Much love<3 Callie