How I lost 20 Pounds (without working out)

I used to be 20-25 pounds heavier than I am now. I remember when summer finally ended and I tried to slip on a pair of jeans that I hadn’t put on in a while. Unfortunately, I couldn’t even pull them up all the way. They stopped just under my butt and I felt a lurch in my stomach. My mind started to race with the possibilities as to why they didn’t fit anymore:

“They shrunk in the wash”… I hadn’t put these jeans in the wash, so that theory was out.

“They shrunk in the drawer”… not possible.

“Maybe they will fit if I try to pull them up now“… they didn’t.

I freaked out mentally and went to look at myself in the mirror. I didn’t notice a big change, except that my face seemed fuller. I went to weigh myself and was shocked when I saw ‘138’ on the scale. My ego tried to reason that it was impossible for me to be that, since I was 119 when I left Oregon. I didn’t understand how this happened, since I thought I was a pretty healthy person and would go jog once in blue moon. (Looking back, I was honestly very unhealthy back then) I made up my mind to drop back down to 120 as quickly as possible.

I became totally obsessed about my weight. I tried counting calories and doing cardio. I got a calorie counter on my phone and started eating protein bars instead of lunch. I got on the scale a little while later and was horrified to see I had gained 4 more pounds. How the f*ck did that happen? I had been restricting and (barely) working out and I expected to be rewarded with a lean bod.

To keep a long story short- it wasn’t until I made one BIG change that the weight fell off me rather quickly. Here is it:

I stopped focusing on weight, on having extra pounds, and started focusing on what number I did want to see on the scale. I changed what I told myself mentally and it made all the difference. I stopped calorie counting and the ridiculous jogs I counted as exercise and just said F it. This doesn’t mean I would go and eat an entire pizza and tell myself I was skinny. I honestly just wanted to start eating better and I didn’t realize I was doing it.

By visualizing what I wanted to see, I attracted it to me. If you think of yourself as someone who is fit, happy and loves to eat healthy, your actions will be very different than if you tell yourself you’re an overweight, sad slob who needs to lose weight.

Do not underestimate the power of visualization.

It is not anyone’s job to lose the weight for you, to get you healthy, or to make you happy. Those are things you need to do yourself. If you want change then you need to be the one to take action.

If you want to be healthier, it’s up to you to do it. Believe me when I tell you complaining or worrying about it will just make you feel worse and you won’t make any change you want to see. Don’t put your happiness or health in someone else’s hands.

Every morning, before you get out of bed, ask yourself “what is the best version of myself?” picture the body you want, the health you want, how you would feel when you attained these things, the energy you would have, and then get out of bed as if you are already that person.

I’m telling you, this stuff works. I know, because I’ve done it.

Much love– Callie ❤

P.S. I told another friend about the power of visualization after she asked me how I lost weight. She tried it herself and lost ten pounds. So, if we can do it, you can easily do it as well!

The Other Side of Yoga

I remember looking at insane yoga poses online and in magazines and thinking it looked like fun. I mean, ever since I’ve been young I’ve wanted to be able to do the splits and as I got older I wanted to increase my flexibility.

There are tons of reasons people want to get into yoga. Some want to get stronger, some want a better body, some want increased movement. I mostly wanted it because I wanted to be able to be more flexible and wanted abs-whatever floats your boat and gets you on the mat.

But the thing is, from all of the things I heard about yoga, I thought it would be a totally awesome experience. I thought I would flow, enjoy, and then stand up from the practice with a flat, perfect stomach. But when the video began and I started going through the movements I realized something:

This shit is hard!

My arms shook, my legs trembled, and I didn’t feel peace of mind at all. I was tired, and annoyed with the instructor because she would hold the positions for so longggg. Half-hour in, she was telling me to go back into down dog for what felt like the thousands time, and I remember thinking something along the lines of stop putting me in this position you cunt. I couldn’t believe I had such a thought, even though I was mostly joking, when I was supposed to be in such a graceful state.

I expected to go into it and rock it, but I didn’t. I couldn’t believe how difficult it was. I ended up having a much deeper appreciation and respect for the people who did it and made it look so easy.

The reason I wrote this post is because I stopped doing yoga for awhile because I didn’t think I was doing it “right”. I felt like the yogi articles I read all talked about how peaceful they felt doing it, and my thoughts were anything but zen. A simple egotistic thought kept me from a truly amazing thing for years. You don’t need to be crazy flexible, strong, or monk-like in order to grab a mat and get on the ground. You just need yourself. There are tons of beginner videos on Youtube. Tara Stiles and BOHO Beautiful have great things for beginners.

Don’t give up on something just because you think it’s hard or because you move through the positions like a clunky mess, while the instructor moves like a perfect wave. It will get easier, you will increase your flexibility, and you will feel amazing once you are done. The most important part is to just not be so hard on yourself. It’s a wonderful thing to get into. Don’t let fear of not being sure what you’re doing keep you from starting. All of those people you see who are amazing at it now were once clunky messes too.

Just don’t take it-or yourself-too seriously. Have fun with it. Try to hold the poses for as long as possible, and if you stumble just laugh and try again. The only person judging you is yourself, so let go of that and enjoy the fact you are pushing yourself to try something new.

I hope you all have an amazing dayyy!

Much love–Callie ❤

The Trick to Getting Fit

The amount of times I have googled “how to get fit” it unreal. Like, from the age of 13 I have been wanting to get toned without much success. I’d kind of skate by on the fact that I was thin and go on a jog once in a blue moon. Afterwards I’d feel on top of the world, like this was the start of a new, healthy person that I had just become. But, later that night I’d eat a box of Cheese-Its and think it was fine because I had “worked out” earlier.

Another time, my friend and I hopped the fence of our schools track area because we wanted to do sprints. The plan was going smoothly until she saw hurdles and told me how amazing she was at them. She set up a couple of them and on the first one she hit her shin and flew face first into the ground. We laughed awhile, then hopped the fence to go home and make smoothies, never really paying attention to the fact we hadn’t done anything physical.

The thing is, I feel like the ego LOVES to complicate things. It loves to get your trapped in your mind, chasing your thoughts like a dog chases its tale, and eventually you just go to bed without getting anything accomplished.

I kept half-ass trying, hoping that the motivation to get in shape (and not just talk about it) would find me. Like one day I would wake up with abs and be a gym junkie. But that motivation never found me. It didn’t find me when I got a gym membership (twice) and after the first week gave up. It didn’t find me when I bought a yoga mat and DVD, it didn’t find me when I was knee-deep in donut holes at 3 am thinking I’ll start tomorrow. I finally decided I needed to work at a gym. I got super pumped about the idea, thinking this was finally the ticket. I thought this makes sooo much sense, I’ll be surrounded by health, I’ll be motivated, I’ll work my way up in the company… but then after I had plans for an interview it hit me. I didn’t want to work at a gym, nor did I want to rise up in the company, because that wasn’t my passion. At that moment, it hit me just how much the ego had distracted me from the very simple goal of getting in shape.

And yes, it is a simple goal. Eat clean, be active. But it feels terrifying because you think I don’t know how to eat clean, the work outs to do, the clothing to wear, how often, what about my other commitments… but all of those things are just distractions, and the answers will come in time if you just relax. Just take one baby step at a time. You can work out at home. If you want a simple layout for the first few weeks, here it is. Get past that initial hump of getting started.  Jump roping and walking take care of cardio, there are TONS of free yoga videos online (I like BOHO Beautiful on YouTube), and there are tons of videos for abs, booty, and arms online that require little/no equipment. There is no reason for you not to start now. And I only say that because I have spent about ten years now putting it off, and I just find that ridiculous.

Perhaps one day if I stay consistent, I will get a gym membership if I feel I need it. But, I don’t feel like thinking that far ahead. I just need to do today’s workout. I’m done stalling just because my ego is waiting for “perfect” conditions. It says, “Don’t worry, one day you will wake up and really want to work out and you will love it.” I’m done waiting for that non-existent time to come because the only time is Now.

SO, the trick to getting fit? Simple. Just start. I know you’ve heard it 1,000 times, but that’s because logically, this is really the only way to get where you want to go. So take the first step. And just start.